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Dear Mr. Hallmark ….. One More Time
(Sent to me by Grief Haven)
Hello there Mr. Hallmark man,
I wrote to you in May
To ask that words of love be shared
With my mom on Mother’s Day.
Just as there is no card for Mom
To let her know I care,
There is no card for my dad, too,
And I have so much to share.
It’s very hard for my loving dad
To know that I’m okay.
To protect me was his job, he feels,
So he thinks he failed some way.
Although I had to leave this world,
While still considered young,
There is no way he ever failed—
There’s no more he could have done.
My dad he tends to question
Those things he cannot see.
I always send him little signs
To say, “Hey, Dad, it’s me!”
I hear him crying in the car,
The shower hides his tears.
He feels he has to be so strong
For those he holds so dear.
My dad he often gets so mad
At what became of me.
He wants so much to understand,
He says, “How could this be?”
I somehow need to let him know,
Though impossible it seems—
For him to live and laugh again
Will fulfill so many dreams.
The card I need to send right now
To a dad as great as mine,
Will thank him for the love he gave
Throughout my brief lifetime.
He’s still the one that I call Dad,
Our bond’s forever strong,
‘Cuz even though he can’t see me,
Our love lives on and on.
Please help me find a way
To tell my dad that when
It comes his time to leave the earth
I’ll be waiting there for him.
And also, Mr. Hallmark man,
Please help him to believe,
That nothing will ever change the fact
That my dad he’ll always be.
Father’s Day Initiative
Here is one of the first Op-Ed’s to run this week regarding the Parental Bereavement Act of 2013. Thank you to fellow grieving dad, Kirk, for submitting this piece to his local paper in South Dakota. Anyone else interested in submitting to their paper by Father’s Day, let me know. Peace.
21 Gun Salute
I was recently out walking my yard with a landscape contractor when I spotted a baby rabbit hiding out in my ground cover. He stayed still long enough for me to approach him and snap the above photo. He looks like a sweet innocent little guy, but I know he will probably be helping himself to my annuals and perennials very soon, if he hasn’t already.
I used to get upset when I would see rabbits in my yard eating my landscaping. In fact, at one time, I purchased a live “no-kill” trap to capture them and relocate them to my local forest preserve. However, the trapping came to an end one Saturday morning while I was rushing around the house getting ready to take clients out to look at homes. I was sitting at my kitchen table enjoying breakfast when I noticed I had caught something overnight. The excitement came to an end when I walked over the back window and noticed I had caught a black and white rabbit. It took me a moment to realize there was a baby skunk in the trap and he didn’t look very happy.
After I had calmed myself down, I started to go through the phone book looking for someone to remove this skunk. I remembered I had seen a vehicle a few months prior with the words “Critter Getter” on the side of it. I laughed to myself when I initially saw it and thought who uses this type of service in the suburbs of Chicago. I now knew the answer to that question; it was idiots like me trying to trap rabbits.
I had finally reached this “Critter Getter” guy and explained my situation. I had to listen to him lecture me about how I shouldn’t be trapping without a license. He then went on to tell me that this skunk was going to die if I didn’t get him out of the cage and the heat soon. My next logical question was “how much?” His response was “$100”. “Done”, I replied. I usually like to negotiate, but this time a hundred bucks sounded like a great deal.
One would think that this would be the end of me trying to rid my yard of rabbits. I went on to try several other home remedies and store bought organic sprays. Some worked, but most of them didn’t. It seemed to change depending on the year.
The quest to rid my yard of rabbits ended in the summer of 2006. It was about 2 weeks after I lost my son Noah. It was mid-June and I was still home from work after losing Noah and would be for another 2-3 months. I was not doing well but still managed to do some things around my house. My wife and I would stay up until midnight and would get up until around 10 AM. My wife also took that time off of work and we spent this time together trying to find our way through the pain of profound grief.
Most people that know me know that I have a tendency to have very bizarre dreams from time to time. During one of these 10 hour sleep sessions, I had a dream that would forever change the way I look at these furry little guys. The dream was fairly short, but very vivid. In my dream, I remember looking into my back yard and seeing rabbits of different sizes and shapes standing (yes, standing on their back feet) out by my back fence. When I walked out to these rabbits, each one was standing on their back feet and holding a rifle into the air. I asked them what they were doing and one of them looked at me and said “we are giving Noah a 21 gun salute”.
It took me several years to be able to tell that story without choking up. Ever since that dream I see rabbits differently. In fact, since the death of Noah, I have a new sense of respect and compassion for wildlife and nature in general. I believe Noah was a kind soul who would have come home with every stray in the neighborhood. I love and miss him greatly. Although I never got to know him, he continues to send me unexpected gifts.